Road I never wanted to travel

I struggle with not being happy right now..

I struggle with not being able to be The Encourager to others in this season of my life..

The fact of the matter is that I am traveling down a road in life that I NEVER ever wanted to travel down AGAIN,, as a matter of fact,,it is a road that I fought  and strive and sacrificed my own happiness for in order not to have to take my family down this road EVER,,,

DIVORCE

In this time of my life, no matter how many people Im around, IM STILL ALONE..

In t this time of my life.. everything that I knew, taught as a woman of God, everything that I thought was the things that "made up parts of who I WAS' has been stripped away from me and left me feeling like Im no longer the same woman I was..

And maybe Im not..

Maybe that is Gods plan..

I dont know that He has this in the palm of his hand,

My identity

My disappointment

My regrets

My desires

My loneliness 

My fears and emotions..

And even though I know these thing very well

Im still sad, concerned, scared and sad..

But I know that God knows that too..

And believe me.. We have had some major talks.....lol..

and I have let him know in no uncertain terms..that Im so over this mess..

I want life to move on to happy now...lol..

I need some kind of New Normal ,,like reallllllllll soon..

I cant go back to the way things was.. I know that..

But I need to step into my future.. and I know Gods timing is the best, and never late...but i feel like his pushing the envelope..lol..just a bit..

I love you Lord.. No matter what..

And I know that You love and want the best for me too.

so lets get started on that...lol..

Standing on a Promise

Lord over the last 11 yrs ,You have been teaching me what a Woman of Godly Character looks like..
You have been impressing on my heart how she lives,
How she treats her husband and raises her children.

Lord though I have not conquered it all,yet I stand on your promise in Isaiah 55:11
so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
Lord I pray that the teachings that you have taught me, went forth to my family.
I pray that not only I treasured them in my heart but that my children will receive great treasure from them also
as they use them as a measure in life.
May the Words of God that I have spoke of in our home be written on the tablets of our hearts and minds forever.

Lord , though my marriage may not of survived the testings of this world,,
Your promise in Isaiah tells me that Your Word does NOT return void..
So Lord I ask that Your Word saturate the heart of my children
and that it spring forth a Harvest in due season that will nourish them and their lives...
And I pray that I will be blessed to see that Harvest..
In Jesus precious name I pray..

Good Mornin Purdy Ladies...

Its 6am and the house is quiet for the moment..

My coffee is poured and Im sitting in the dark and just spending some quality time with my Lord..

Thanking Him for His provision, protection and for just loving me as much as he does..

And asking Him if he would share with my what His plans for me today are..

but He likes to keep them a secret...lol..

 He likes to surprise me with little Blessings all through out the day.. 

I bet He is the same way with YOU..

Many times we must simply WATCH for our BLESSINGS.. 

Big and Small

and learn to smile and say Thank You to our Father when we see them.. 

Have a Blessed day sweet Sisters

and dont forget to 

Count Your Blessings..

♥